I live not for you,
I live not for him,
I live not for the memories,
I live not for the love that is now hers,
I live not for the past,
I live not for the hope that is dim,
But I live for the life that is given to me by God.
I live because I believe I can,
I live because I know I am strong,
I live now knowing that through it all I have emerged and grown in ways,
when once upon a time I never thought I would.
graduation days...
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
A BEAUTIFUL GIRL
The bitter taste in my mouth,
That anxiety that burns inside of you,
That restlessness you get each time you start thinking about the past,
That loneliness you fear in the morning,
Those moments spent with with him,
Those laughter, those tears,
That indescribable ache within you,
That longing for him,
Those moments of despair when you are dying to talk to him,
That pain and hurt when he is with her,
That unfinished conversation that left me nowhere,
That hurt which came out from knowing that he never did love me,
That pain which wounded me, which came uninvited,
That love which I had so desired belonged to someone else,
Those tears that trickled down, each time he got more closer to her,
That indecisiveness, not knowing why it happened to me,
That relentless hour when I waited to be back in his arms,
That desire to be free from all this pain,
That desire to be loved,
That desire to be strong,
That desire to be a good friend, sister, daughter, woman.
That realization that good things are in hold for me, that he was never destined to be mine,
That it's hard but I have to be strong,
That I am after all a beautiful me.
26/3/02
That anxiety that burns inside of you,
That restlessness you get each time you start thinking about the past,
That loneliness you fear in the morning,
Those moments spent with with him,
Those laughter, those tears,
That indescribable ache within you,
That longing for him,
Those moments of despair when you are dying to talk to him,
That pain and hurt when he is with her,
That unfinished conversation that left me nowhere,
That hurt which came out from knowing that he never did love me,
That pain which wounded me, which came uninvited,
That love which I had so desired belonged to someone else,
Those tears that trickled down, each time he got more closer to her,
That indecisiveness, not knowing why it happened to me,
That relentless hour when I waited to be back in his arms,
That desire to be free from all this pain,
That desire to be loved,
That desire to be strong,
That desire to be a good friend, sister, daughter, woman.
That realization that good things are in hold for me, that he was never destined to be mine,
That it's hard but I have to be strong,
That I am after all a beautiful me.
26/3/02
LET IT BE
Wish these were the words I could say to my heart. My mind knows it will be best for the two of us. My heart's not giving space for reasons. It still feels waht it knows is impossible. It's still oblivious to what it knows it's no longer hers. This unrest mind of mine has endless beliefs and hopes of waht it knows will just be a mirage and illusion...
2nd year graduation
A THING OR TWO
Tell me a thing or two,
Make me smile and laugh too.
I see you sniggering in the corner,
Far from me and far from ' us'.
Why cannot you laugh in the open sunshine?
with me, with " us"?
Do you not realize I need you?
So, tell me a thing or two.
Make me smile and laugh too.
I see you sniggering in the corner,
Far from me and far from ' us'.
Why cannot you laugh in the open sunshine?
with me, with " us"?
Do you not realize I need you?
So, tell me a thing or two.
FADES AWAY, SHIES AWAY
Dry leaves and twigs, marks our friendship now;
What once had been the twittering of birds,
have now become a deafening silent conversation.
A nod and a ' Hi there!', marks our friendship now,
What once had been hugs and kisses
is now just another stranger's way.
Well, everything fades away, shies away;
till you have no more of it.
28/01/02
What once had been the twittering of birds,
have now become a deafening silent conversation.
A nod and a ' Hi there!', marks our friendship now,
What once had been hugs and kisses
is now just another stranger's way.
Well, everything fades away, shies away;
till you have no more of it.
28/01/02
BURN
So sure of what you are doing,
Unlike me hesitant and crawling
Times in life gets us at one point or the other.
Though, so not bothered and unpeturbed are you;
Shaken and desperate am I.
You bear the strength of a rock;
I, an epitome of shredded leaves.
Unlike me hesitant and crawling
Times in life gets us at one point or the other.
Though, so not bothered and unpeturbed are you;
Shaken and desperate am I.
You bear the strength of a rock;
I, an epitome of shredded leaves.
Someone I had known
As I walked along life's way, unsure and terrified;
I came across a special friend,
A friend that everyone of us dream of;
He and I were different, yet so alike;
It was just a glance, a mere whisper of words
that brought us together;
We are separated now,separated by the destinies
we thought we could bend.
But somewhere in the sky
still shines the stars bright and luminous
And under that same starlit sky,
He'd kissed me and held me in his arms.
I came across a special friend,
A friend that everyone of us dream of;
He and I were different, yet so alike;
It was just a glance, a mere whisper of words
that brought us together;
We are separated now,separated by the destinies
we thought we could bend.
But somewhere in the sky
still shines the stars bright and luminous
And under that same starlit sky,
He'd kissed me and held me in his arms.
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